4 months down!!!!

June 10, 2012

Weight: 209.2 lbs

Total Weight Lost: 35.8 lbs.

(My husband told me that I needed to wear something different in the pictures because the black pants and red tee-shirt were starting to hang off of me and no one would be able to see the weight difference. So, new outfit!!) 

I am completely stoked about the results this month! I didn't lose much in actual pounds, but my clothes no longer fit and I finally had to go shopping! Yay for shopping and actually not wanting to vomit when I look in the mirror while trying things on!! 

Some interesting tidbits from the past 4 months:

Went from a size 22 to a size 16 jeans! WOO-HOO!!!

When I wear my seatbelt in the car, I no longer have rolls popping out between the straps!

IT IS SO MUCH EASIER TO SHAVE MY LEGS!!!!! :)

I find myself feeling cold more often.....

I AM NOT scared to be in pictures anymore.

Can finally cross my legs again without feeling like my hip is going to pop out of it's socket!

I don't crave as much junk food.

My new favorite fast food joint is SUBWAY!!!

I am sleeping much better (without my back hurting).

My chest is smaller..... and I'm OK with it!!

I still look at some pictures of myself and think, "Wow, I still have a long way to go...." and then realize how far I've come and feel very grateful!! 

I.MIGHT.ACTUALLY.WEAR.A.SWIMSUIT.THIS.YEAR.FOR.
THE.FIRST.TIME.IN.12 YEARS!!!! 
(of course, being sinfully modest, I will still wear shorts or a little skirt over it).

I am starting to love myself again.

It is interesting what being overweight can do to a person. I didn't realize how down I was until I discovered how high I have felt during this process. Granted, I still have about 40 more pounds to go, and then the process of maintaining will be my constant struggle, but throughout it all I have learned so much about myself. It's sad how depressed and withdrawn I was when I look back to 5 months ago. 

AND I AM HERE TO TELL EACH OF YOU THAT:

IF I CAN DO IT, EVERYONE CAN!!!!!

I will always be grateful for my journey. I will always battle with weight. It's who I am. I have learned so much about control and will power. But most of all, I have learned about myself and that I CAN love myself. I will never be skinny. I will never be a model. I will never be what society deems is beautiful. And I'm ok with that. But I will be grateful for every step I take in bettering myself and for becoming that person that I always knew was inside of me yearning to be released. 

Thank you all for your continued support and encouragement. I could not have done it without you! You are my cheerleaders. You will never know how you have touched me. 

THANK YOU ALL!!!!